Penyesalan

Before I came here, I made a promise to myself and was determined to do the best fro my masters. But things did not come according to my plan and I was like 'hanyut' and suddenly I woke up and found that time had pass by so quickly. Many things left unsettled and unsolved. Right now I totally put the blame on me and cursing myself for not using the time wisely. I only had a few time left and I had to work it out within this limited and constraint time (sound stressful, aite?).

Ya Allah Yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani, permudahkanlah jalan hamba-Mu ini. Sesungguhnya hamba-Mu ini sudah banyak terleka dan hanyut dengan bisikan syaitan yang sentiasa cemburukan anak Adam. How I wish I can turn back time and do things differently. If Allah wills. Ameen.

100 days to go

Helloo!! I know, i know. I haven't update my blog for a month. Haha, nk kata bz xdak la bz sgt. Ok, it's just 100 days to go for the Olympic games in London. And..also for my dissertation submission. Apparently, it's the same day as the opening ceremony of the Olympic games. Whoah, lepas abes je antar dissertation kita layan tgk olympic smpai pengsan k.

So here's the milestones to the end of my study.
1) April- submit PBL 9 & 10, outline dissertation, clinical attachment (how?)
2) May-siapkan PBL 7 & 8 (and find out more about something....ngeh ngeh)
3) June- exam module 7,8,9,10 and resit papers
4) July- submit dissertation (hard copy)

Wish me luck and pray for me k...hope everything ends well :)))

Happy Birthday Princess

Today is my daughter's 2nd birthday. I feel so guilty because she's far away from us and we can't celebrate her birthday. Xpe Sarah, nnti mommy belikan hadiah utk Sarag dr sini ye. Mainan masak2 yg Sarah suka tu k.

On my side, things are not good lately. My exam result is out already and I failed 3 papers with just 1 point. I'm a bit disappointed but I think I deserve it because I didn't study hard enough. And it's kind of a reminder from Allah s.w.t supaya sy xleka sgt kt sini. (sebenarnya rasa nk balik sgt2 dah ni...bukan best sgt pon duk sini).

Apa yg best kt sini so far is: Free newspaper every morning and afternoon, excellent public transport, health and education system...Itu saje. Oh ya one more thing I do really love is, there's NO CICAKS here!

Ok la, dah merapu meraban, PBL dan tajuk dissertation xdak lg ni (mati la aku...). For my little princess, Happy Birthday sayang, mommy loves you sooo much.

Anxiety

Whoah! It's March already...for the past weeks I've been busy with exam and classes. Mind you my class is everyday from 9-6. It drains my energy out by the end of the day.

Thinking of next week make me nervous (not so nervous actually). First, because my exam result will be ready next week and second because my Module 7 class will begin. Same as this week, everyday class 9-6 with big big names that gonna teach us. There's only 4 of us in the class. I like it but sometimes I feel down too. Seems like I'm the one with lowest IQ in my class.

Speaking about exam, which I don't feel nervous about, which is not a good sign. Because, selalunya kalau sy xrasa takut atau xrasa pape, I sense it's not gonna good. But....I'm hoping that it goes well. I wanna go back to my little sweet Sarah.

Rindu budak ni.

English education

I think my English has become worst. I can't speak fluently nowadays. Sometimes I can even say a word. This shows how time can get to you especially in language. You learn it for years, then when you didn't use it, it just gone with the wind. So pathetic. Argh, how can I improve myself? Anyone? Any suggestions?

What's done is done

Yeah, yesterday I sat for my Term 1 exam. 4 papers in a row...and...it's was horrendous. The problem is not with the papers but with me. If only I study hard and read by hard all the lecture notes and books, I MAY BE can answer the questions. I'm just hoping that I pass all the papers. No more distinction or merit day dreaming. Finger cross. Please pray for me too. *hugs*

Kasut Buaya

Current obsession, tapik mahal....jamu mata aje la kasut2 boye ni, tsk tsk -_-'

(pic: courtesy of crocs website)