Penyesalan

Before I came here, I made a promise to myself and was determined to do the best fro my masters. But things did not come according to my plan and I was like 'hanyut' and suddenly I woke up and found that time had pass by so quickly. Many things left unsettled and unsolved. Right now I totally put the blame on me and cursing myself for not using the time wisely. I only had a few time left and I had to work it out within this limited and constraint time (sound stressful, aite?).

Ya Allah Yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani, permudahkanlah jalan hamba-Mu ini. Sesungguhnya hamba-Mu ini sudah banyak terleka dan hanyut dengan bisikan syaitan yang sentiasa cemburukan anak Adam. How I wish I can turn back time and do things differently. If Allah wills. Ameen.

Anxiety

Whoah! It's March already...for the past weeks I've been busy with exam and classes. Mind you my class is everyday from 9-6. It drains my energy out by the end of the day.

Thinking of next week make me nervous (not so nervous actually). First, because my exam result will be ready next week and second because my Module 7 class will begin. Same as this week, everyday class 9-6 with big big names that gonna teach us. There's only 4 of us in the class. I like it but sometimes I feel down too. Seems like I'm the one with lowest IQ in my class.

Speaking about exam, which I don't feel nervous about, which is not a good sign. Because, selalunya kalau sy xrasa takut atau xrasa pape, I sense it's not gonna good. But....I'm hoping that it goes well. I wanna go back to my little sweet Sarah.

Rindu budak ni.

English education

I think my English has become worst. I can't speak fluently nowadays. Sometimes I can even say a word. This shows how time can get to you especially in language. You learn it for years, then when you didn't use it, it just gone with the wind. So pathetic. Argh, how can I improve myself? Anyone? Any suggestions?

Lazy bones

Bukak2 emel, ada request on one of the book that I borrowed from the library. I had the book for weeks and guess what I only managed to read a few pages of the book. I guess it's time for me to work that lazy bones of mine. Malam ni xtido menelaah dan esk pg2 dah kena hantar, hehe, pdhal dah overdue for 2 days. Ok, here's my resolution for 2012.

1) Nk jd lebih rajin dan rajin lg, supaya dpt pass my MSc courses successfully. I x aim high pon, cukup sekadar pass on first attempt, Insya Allah.

2) Jadi ibu yg baik dan isteri yg solehah. This year has given me so much reflection on myself. Ya Tuhan byknya dosaku tp nikmat mu melaut luasnya.

3) Manage my money well. Hutang byk weh...Need to prioritize between necessity and needs (eh betol ke)...

4) Yg ni penting ni, nk make effort to baca sebanyak mungkin buku yg ada. Nk berilmu kena byk membaca. Ilmu boleh dtg dr byk cara, one of it through membaca selain dr experience.

5) Plan bulan 7, byk berjalan luas pemandangan. So kena save up money from now.

6) Ok, dah sebulan 2012 berlalu, tp aku ni mcm xbuat pape, xbelajar pape, so it's time to move now, get up, and work it bebeh! Ameen.

Post ni peringatan utk diri sendiri. Sbb I found out if you write and say your goal clearly of what you wanted, it's kind of a way to make it happen. Mcm doa jugak lah kan. So positive vibes please come to me, negativity go away.